This Memorial Stone in Words is a bit different because the miraculous thing didn't exactly happen to me, but it's always felt like it did happen to me a bit and I was still involved (spiritually). I've always considered it a big event in my life, so I'm sharing it.The moment I told a friend I was pregnant with HB will forever stand out in my mind. After I told her, tears filled my eyes and heart and I said, "I wish
you were the one telling
me this." See, my good friend Kim had been married for almost eight years at the time, almost all of them trying to have a baby. She and her husband walked a difficult road of hurt and disappointment for years more, but she never,
ever lost faith that God was going to open her womb. Never. It was amazing, and, I admit, nervous to watch. It really sometimes seemed that she was the only one who never doubted that God would cause her to become pregnant.
When I became pregnant with our second child, The Boy, I sent Kim a letter. She had shared with me once that she was always very happy for friends the first time they became pregnant. It was the second time that she had difficulty with. She was still always joyful for her friends, but she grieved the truth that they were moving forward with having a family and she was still not getting to become a part of something, mothering, that she longed for greatly.
The day she and her husband came to see The Boy at the hospital is a memory etched in my mind. Seeing my two dear friends hold a baby and celebrate with us, when I knew such a big part of their heart was breaking was such a testimony to their love for others. They could have succumbed to selfishness, to hurt, to coveting... but they "rejoiced with those who rejoiced". The day they held The Boy was special to me in a way they didn't know about at the time.
Almost thirty days previous, Kim's sister sent out a letter, secretly, to Kim's close friends. She asked us to pray for forty days for Kim's womb to be opened and for the desires of Kim and John's heart to be given them. The forty days ended on Thanksgiving Day, 1998. I eagerly committed to praying and fasting for those days (don't worry, I fasted sweets since I was pregnant). It was such an amazing time to be going before the throne of God beseeching for a loved one. The day after my son was born, November 19, 1998, was the day John and Kim held him and rejoiced with us. The photo I have of that moment, John has tears in his eyes, but a smile on his face. It broke my heart and still makes me cry. How I wanted them to be parents.
The following April, I saw Kim's car drive on camp in the middle of the day. I walked out to the porch to ask her what she was doing. She couldn't even make it to me before she said, "I'm pregnant." My heart burst and my knees hit the ground. I couldn't even stand. I was bawling instantly. We held each other and prayed prayers of thanks. I was overcome. Truly. I think it was the first time in my life I had wanted something that desperately for someone else. To see this most wonderful gift being given to someone I loved dearly flooded my soul with emotion.
She came in and told me the story. She had suspected, but needed to be sure. She showed up at our doctor's office without an appointment and just said, "Tell Dr. R. that Kim is here and thinks she's pregnant." Since they had been trying for over ten years at this point, Dr. R. called her back himself, tested her, and cried with her at the beautiful results. Then he prayed with her. She next called and left a message for John asking him to meet her for lunch at the top of a hill they often went to together. As John walked up, Kim had her head down in prayer while she sat on a big rock. He was nervous that he had done something wrong and got down on his knees, looked up at her and said, "What is it, Kim?" She looked him in the eye and said, "The Lord has given us a child." He wept like a baby.
I asked her when she was due. "Thanksgiving," she said. My knees got weak. I asked her if her sister knew yet and she told me they were leaving that night to go surprise them in Houston to tell them in person. I started crying again, but this time Kim only thought she knew why. I was
really praising God for His beautiful symbolism and for the way I knew Kim's sister was going to feel and react as soon as she heard the due date. A due date that was exactly one year after the forty days ended. Unbelievable, but not really. Our God is author of the unbelievable.
Kim and John's gift from the LORD in the form of a child was
actually born November 19, 1999. The exact day they held
my son one year earlier, rejoicing with tears in their eyes because of their longing. I was able to be there and see them born as parents that night. My spirit soared as John walked out of the delivery room holding his son. Tears again in his eyes, but this time in stunned praise at God's blessing of
answering their longing. I wept as I hugged my friend Kim, the beautiful look of awe and gratitude on her face.
I was so very thankful for that precious baby and a God who loves to give abundantly more than we can imagine. Kim and John just had their third baby this past December! They couldn't be happier. I couldn't be happier for them.
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